A Glimpse.

I thought, if my good pregnant friend can literally LEAVE her blog for good but then come back after being told by her fans that she should come back....and then she blogs again, I can blog, too. And then I thought, if my 2 good married friends can take pictures of our night together and put together a great blog filled with pictures and fun and stories on honesty, then I can blog too. And then there are 2 good friends who have celebrities singing with them on their blog. Then there's the good friend who is more dedicated to making her blog better than anyone I know. Then there's the good friend who posts pictures of one cute little fella with the most adorable, expressive brow I've ever seen. Then there's the blog where my good friend reminds her readers that "I am alive" every time I get on it. Whew. I was nervous there for a second. Although...if something has happened to her since that day she posted that, THREE months ago, in June, she may not be alive and I could be reading a lie every time I check her blog with anticipation. Oh...NOPE it's okay she proves that she is alive in other ways, like being on Live TV practically every time I turn the thing on. If they can all blog, then I can blog, too.

Thanks for the positive role modeling, everyone. You all deserve a star. I will secretly name one for each of you next time it's starry out. 

It's 6:18am presently, and I'm up (been up since 5:30). No surprise there, I'm usually up by this time anyway for teaching but I will say it would be nice to every now and then see the number 7 in that space for the hour every now and then. Number 8? No way, that would be pushing it. Well, I just pretty much got a firm message from God and I LOVE when that happens. Here's the dealio. I'm going to share something with you that not many people know so congratulations for sticking with me and my blog, you are about to learn something new about me. Unless you've already heard. I'm on E-harmony. I know, very exciting. I've been on for awhile now, like a month or so. I've "met" this guy and last night we went to the next level if you can even call them levels....well next level in the online sense. He gave me his screen name. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, his screen name. I'm not going to share too much because, well, this is a blog and why would I? Anyway, I'm going to cut to the chase. It is so so so important to me that I be challenged in my faith. And this guy seems quite exciting overall. To the point that he has a motorcycle. Now I'm not one to get all girly and squeal and be stupid. But I've realized in the past couple of days that I've gotten swayed by all the excitement that is this guy. The motorcycle is the obvious, but only one, of the exciting things about him. Oh, and back up, he knows how I feel about meeting someone who is a strong christian who loves Jesus and would challenge me in my own walk with the Lord. I've asked him about his own faith a couple of times and he says some good things, but I feel like so far I haven't felt like it's evident that he would be able to challenge me. 

So do you ever wake up in the middle of the night, or just wicked early, and start getting really anxious about things? I feel like that happens to me a lot. Like everything that is a little bit stressful during the day is a LOT bit stressful when it's just me in the dark with my thoughts. Sometimes I forget to IMMEDIATELY turn to Jesus and give all those seemingly huge burdens to Him but this morning, while freaking out about this guy and all the excitement that is seemingly NOT Jesus, the monumental thought occurred to me. PRAY about it! Geez, why didn't I think of that already? I'm an idiot. And idiot that, as demonstrated right there, needs someone who will remind me of those kind of things that should be so very obvious to me.  So anyway, I chatted it up with God and clear as day I knew that I needed to be strong and write to the guy and tell it to him straight. I want someone who loves Jesus more than anyone, and I have been swayed by things like motorcycles, and I NEED to know how you will challenge me. So tell me now.

I wasn't that forceful in the email I just sent him, but I made it clear that I can't be with some dude who doesn't love Jesus more than he can ever love anyone. Thank you Jesus for that awesome clear message.

So there you have it, a little glimpse into my private life. Not so much private anymore, but I was so excited and relieved I just had to share it. 

The fact of the matter is, Jesus rocks a million times more than any motorcycle ever will. Or the guy that rides on top of it.