This Blog is ALL OVER the Place.

Man. This month has been cuh-RAAAAZYYY. In a really really ridiculously GREAT way. September 2011, kids, it's one for the books. I mean, for my books. I guess. I'm sure you can relate although it may not be September o' 2011 for you.

Let me break it down into 3 very crazy and I-never-thought-I'd-do-this events.

1. Ironman.

2. Tattoo (in honor of said ironman).

3. Wheel of Fortune audition...hopefully will get a BIG MONEY (come and be a contestant for realzies) letter in 2 weeks!

4. Boyfri---oh wait. Ok fine this is a goal that comes and goes. God's timing, sigh.

These BIG things, though, ironically make me think of the smaller things that really aren't that crazy, but are significant because it's just me, livin' life, while being blessed by God. No I mean, REALLY little, miniscule, normal day-to-day things. I'm starting a bible reading in one year thingy with my church and naturally, we have started in Genesis (and Job). I am NOT great at this on my own for the most part, and am glad I'm doing it with some other crazy kids. Well anyway, I love starting in Genesis because I feel like I'm starting fresh, I'm going in not having to feel like I have to know about stories, God made man and animals and the WORLD (no biggie) and I get that. I mean, in my little mind I get that and I don't have to memorize names and begot's and such. I ALSO love that I get something new from the beginning of Genesis every time. This time, it goes back to what I was saying before. God has blessed me with crazy big events that are fun and exciting, but he has also blessed me (and you) with the tiniest things that don't get that crazy attention. For example: a new day (sometimes I'll remember to kind of freak out with thanksgiving in the morning when I wake up, fully aware that I don't deserve the life I have), laughter, dancing, food, great friends, a church home, a coffee date, a smile, printer cords, sleep, fun nights out, music, a cute outfit, skype, an encouraging note. I don't know where I'm going with this (which is why, I think, blogging intimidates me for the most part...I feel this pressure to be organized and to make sense and feel like I never do either one of these). Thing is, God made me and you in His image. And I continue to look down on myself and complain about the STUPIDEST things (so-called "boyfriend", money, traffic, Market Basket, writing reports, fruit flies), all the while God is loving me and continuing to be with me. There's a song called Times by Tenth Avenue North that I can't get enough of sometimes. I'll just play it over and over and over; the chorus goes a little something like this (no, if this were in person I would NOT sing it to you):

my love is over,
its underneath, its inside, its in between
the times you doubt me, when you can't feel
the times that you've questioned 'is this for real?'
the times you've broken, the times that you mend
the times you hate me and the times that you bend
well my love is over, its underneath
its inside, its in between,
these times you're healing
and when your heart breaks
the times that you feel like you've fallen from grace
the times you're hurting
the times that you heal
the times you go hungry and are tempted to steal
in times of confusion and chaos and pain
im there in your sorrow under the weight of your shame
im there through your heartache
im there in the storm
my love i will keep you by my power alone
i dont care where you've fallen, where you have been
i'll never forsake you
my love never ends, it never ends

It's ironic I guess that I'm putting these lyrics up in a blog when I'm like, September has been AWESOME! But I think that because it has been awesome, I've almost forgotten about the One who has provided it, and I've been convicted of putting those events and praise and people before Him.

I think I have officially gone all over the place with this blog and it doesn't make sense! In conclusion, which considering the trend may have to do nothing with what I just wrote, I'm thankful for God and His love and and his unrelenting forgiveness. He's just so dang good.